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The Round Table / Re: TARGETED INDIVIDUAL: That's me, what are you? We will find out....

« Last post by tellomon on October 25, 2024, 09:25:56 AM »

CHOSEN ONES!! You're Being GANGSTALKED NON-STOP! It's SCARY!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SOpNGdy-Bs0

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The Round Table / Re: Tales From The Narc Side

« Last post by tellomon on October 24, 2024, 07:39:20 AM »

This Video is About MAD Magazine

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6dcx5RT-tEY

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The Round Table / Re: Tales From The Narc Side

« Last post by tellomon on October 24, 2024, 07:25:32 AM »

How Narcissists are Part of a Dangerous Cult

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KYFcioWrnOs

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The Round Table / Re: Tales From The Narc Side

« Last post by tellomon on October 23, 2024, 05:53:47 PM »

How severe is
narcissistic abuse?

Narcissistic abuse has to be one of the worst most cruel types of abuse. It leaves the victim drained, unsure of themselves and the person who is abusing them. causes depression, anxiety and low self esteem. It can play out as emotional, psychological or physical. They will criticize, gaslight, and covert narcs use passive aggressive statements. They will guilt you and blame you for everything that is wrong. They play demeaning mind games. Deceive and trick. Lies, lies and more lies.

The longer they are allowed to torment you, the worse it will get. It's really bad. It's not over when you get away from these people. You have life long issues with depression, anxiety, panic attacks and PTSD. Healing is possible, but it takes determination, sometimes therapy, the ups and downs of being a victim (good days and bad).

It sometimes takes years to recover, although some never fully recover. It's because the abuse is so thought out and intentional. Purposely done to destroy our very soul.
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It’s about the most severe form of mental torture you will put yourself through.

Notice how I mention “yourself.” I am trying to get away from taking the majority of the blame for what I went through. I’m big on accountability, but I can take it to a new level.

Yea, I realized what was going on about three years in, hell, might have been year two. But “I” stayed, she wasn’t twisting my arm.

She clearly showed me time and time again who she was with all the lies, cheating, gaslighting and manipulation. But here I stayed, waiting, hoping and begging her to change. That’s like any irrational mindset when in addiction. Hoping the person will change.

If I’d just stayed and accepted the abuse and her as she was it would have been a lot easier. It’s fight it is when it really got bad.

Little did I know I was changing myself in this process. I was doing further damage to an already fragile, and emotional traumatized mind I had no idea was this bad until I met her.

She’s gone now, about 14 months gone. And I still question what the felafel it was. The other day I had a moment where I actually felt sorry for her. I mean, “is that felafeling normal?” Normal, maybe, rational? felafel no!

Someone who lied to you about being married, only to hook you in with deceit and, f*ck your best friend.

Show utter no form of empathy in some of the most miserable times in my life only to double down on my trauma, and gaslight me into believing my reactions were abuse. All while I started thinking I was the narcissists.

I still look back and scratch my head to what went on.

That’s the problem with the Covert type. Their faked empathy, apologizing and tears will create a form of addictive trauma bond that death will seem like a better option of escape, than living without this person.

I actually minimized and justified her abuse towards me. I would continually make excuses for her bullshit all because she would have that “damsel in distress” bullshit.

Looking back, the damage was done long ago. But I stayed 3–4 years longer than I should have. But with my childhood trauma, apparently it felt “normal” to me.

Now I’m left with the hazmat team to clean up the mess I was left with. There was blood being shed before she came into my life. She just made sure to loosen the tourniquet to help me bleed out.

I don’t know what emotions are right any more, I don’t. I get lost in the translation of them all when severe anxiety hits with any perceived sense of an abandonment.

I feel like a nuisance, and hassle to most people in my life. No one understands this bullshit, or childhood trauma for that matter, unless they are highly aware and in tune with theirs emotions.

It’s takes months, or maybe years of research to even begin to wrap your mind around what you just went through. And even then you won’t believe yourself.

How severe does something have to be when a snake has bitten you time, and time again. And with each bite you end up in the ER with the doctor telling you to stop going in the area where these snakes are.

But you ignore the professionals and yourself and keep going back.

Looking, hoping, begging and praying it stops biting you.

It’s about as severe as it gets. Can’t think of anything more severe.
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The damage inflicted by a narcissist is like an invisible dagger, piercing deep within you. You might think it's their wicked words that cause the harm, shredding your self-esteem and turning you into a mere shadow of your former self. But truth is, it's the behaviors they plant in you that keep this toxic cycle alive.

They master the art of positive reinforcement, only granting their support when you belittle yourself and bow down. These actions, born from their hurtful words, keep you shackled in emotional turmoil. At first, you might brush off their words and actions, pretending they mean nothing, feigning indifference. But as time passes, those thoughts infiltrate your mind, festering like a ticking time bomb. Eventually, the explosion comes, again and again, fueled by frustration and anger.

You find yourself locked in an internal battle, desperately clinging to civility while they relentlessly push you toward the edge of sanity. They eagerly await the chance to taunt you, reveling in your "craziness." Despite your seething fury and lack of desire to do anything for them, you reluctantly comply, all in the pursuit of proving your inherent goodness.

Deep down, you simmer with rage, hidden behind a façade of composure. They deploy cunning strategies, conducting forceful reconnaissance, convincing you they're cheating. They go to great lengths to plant doubt in your mind, leading you on a wild goose chase to catch them in the act. But alas, you stumble upon them innocently engaged in unrelated affairs, leaving you feeling foolish and deceived.

Their manipulation breeds self-doubt, making you question your own perception and interpretation of events. They use this incident as a weapon, dissuading you from ever daring to question their true deceitful actions. The nagging feeling that something is amiss gnaws at your core, but the countless times you've been proven wrong stifles your courage to confront the truth.

A narcissist's ultimate goal is to poison your sense of self-worth. Their hurtful words inflict pain, but it is your submissive response that allows these beliefs to take root in your very being. Slowly but surely, you transform into a vessel of negativity, perpetuating and reinforcing these destructive emotions even when they are absent. As a consequence, you find yourself trapped in a relentless cycle of self-destruction.

You bear witness as your life crumbles into everything you despise, and, tragically, you become the person you once detested. You make excuses, promising yourself that change will come, but now you're caught in a web of torment. Your days are consumed by battling negative emotions instead of truly living. Your thoughts are entangled in rationalizations for the narcissist's actions, all in an attempt to preserve the illusion of sanity and kindness.

In essence, you're ensnared within the clutches of this relentless cycle, yearning desperately to break free from the suffocating grip of negative emotions that dominate your existence. Did I miss anything?

https://www.quora.com/How-severe-is-narcissistic-abuse